BLAH!

Today is a blah day. I don't know how else to explain it.

I think a lot of it has to deal with the fact that I have a lot swimming around up in my head...

...should I go to Hawaii? but it will cost a LOT of money! and what about time off?! I mean, I technically have the time to take. BUT, then I'll have no even two full days off!

...will I ever be in a relationship? am I just too dorky? not funny enough? too tall? not outgoing enough? too controlling? would I be ok with being single for the rest of my life?

...work! ACK! why have I been such a slacker? I need to: -book the rooms for next year's meetings; -plan my Admin Meeting for next week; -return phone calls; -schedule and plan Try It Troops; -find volunteers to lead troops; -fill spots on my Admin Team; -and the list goes on and one

...back to am I likeable? well, maybe if you said this differently, or did this differently is what then starts to run through my head...

...what is God teaching me? That I need to know myself better. But what does that look like? Am I afraid to see myself, who He has created me to be?

And really, that is just a small glimpse into my mind. And only what has run through my mind in the last hour or so. It makes it hard to even concentrate long enough to get something done at work.

Do you know who the theologian Jonathan Edwards is? He wrote all those "resolved" statements. Part of me feels like today would be a day we I would write some of my "resolved" statements.

Like...

Resolved: I will no longer sleep through my alarm.

Resolved: I will be a good steward of my time at work. This will be shown through no longer playing spider solitaire as a "mental break" and returning all phone calls the same day they are received.

Resolved: I will not focus on being single. Each time that thought crops up in my mind I will instead begin praying.

And on and on it could go...

And part of me is serious in making these resolutions. Maybe I should at least consider trying to redirect many of my thoughts... especially when trying to be productive at work.

What about you? Do you all have days like this?