Anxious

I woke up this morning very anxious.

It has been a pattern recently. I am good for a couple of days. Loving life, ok with where God has me. Then BAM! I wake up overwhelmed and not trusting God, not trusting His plan.

I'll never be out of debt.

I'll never be married.

I'll never be good at my job.

I'll never be a good friend.

I am not good enough. funny enough. pretty enough. smart enough. disciplined enough.

I think this is the valley and season God has me in right now. Just trusting Him and His plan. Clinging to His truth and His will for my life (even if I can't see it right now).

It was so encouraging to have God use this blog post to remind me of that.

We all have our struggles. But, "courage isn't natural; it's a choice. It is an act of obedience and trust."

Today I am making a choice. To be brave in uncertainty. To trust God when all I hear is Satan's lies. To know that God has His best (and my best) at heart. God is a good God; He is loving; He is faithful; He hasn't betrayed me yet and He won't ever. Because He is my God who is merciful. I am His and He is mine.

I am so glad I found (In)Courage, because it has been something I have needed all week long!