Me = Selfish!

I have recently had this revelation that I am so selfish.

Whether or not you believe me, I am very shy and self-conscious. And I have turned this into a very selfish thing.

When i talk to someone, especially someone i don't know, I have turned it into: "Oh, I just said something really stupid." "Look how awkward this is, they must not like me." etc... I do this rather than focusing on what the person is saying, and in turn learning about them and sharing their life with them.

I don't give my time as freely as I should. I want my alone time (I need it to be energized), but in turn if I have a busy week I just choose not to be with others. For instance, last week I had to work three evenings. I had a friend who needed to talk to someone. I knew this, but rather than take my one night off to spend it with her, I just stayed at home "because I really needed it." Umm... wrong choice, I am afraid to say.

I am selfish with my time and God. Rather than sacrifice, I just don't spend time with Him.

Why am I so self-centered?

I pray that God continues to convict me of this and shows me ways that I need to be pouring out and into others.