Changing Tune

There was a point in time where I like McCain; I could have dealt with him in office. Now, I am not so sure.

Why did I like him?

Because he seemed moderate. He seemed reasonable... like he was ok with not being straight Republican.

But now, McCain has gone all Bush on us, and I am not so sure anymore.

Here is an article that shows once again, McCain is flip-flopping.

What am I going to do if the tickets are McCain and Clintion? Vote third party? Abstain from voting? Move to Canada? Tell me people, what am I to do?

voting pro-choice doesn't mean your pro-death!

Thank you! Read this article... ok?!?!

So, election years might be what my nightmares are made of.

First of all, with this primary season the election stuff starts a good year before hand.

Secondly, I could probably recite to you each and every candidates ad. I do not want to see one more ad. Too bad its April and the election isn't until November.

And, finally... anyone else notice how much division an election, or politics for that matter, can cause? I am a Christian. I am a liberal.

GASP!

Yes, you can be a Christian and a liberal. Not all Christians vote Republican.

Again, GASP!

However, I am tired of people being closed-minded and attacking me for it.

Ok, not a sarcastic one... for real GASP!

Yes, I have had brothers and sisters not listen to me and my reasons for voting one way or why I stand where I do on politics. Instead they try to make me feel stupid, make me feel like I am not a Christian for my views, etc. They attack me (to quote one, "I do not think you can be a Christian and a Democrat at the same time.")

Well, here is a news flash. God isn't a Republican. He is also not a Democrat. In fact, I am pretty sure He is anti our laws and government. He wishes for us to be blameless and to be perfect. Except, we screwed that up at the Fall of man in the Garden of Eden. So instead we have man made laws that are supposed to help regulate morality and keep chaos from reigning here on Earth.

So, while I want morality to be regulated, we have to realize that you can't hold those who do not agree with you to the same standards. If someone doesn't see sleeping around as wrong, how can you expect them to view things like abortion as wrong? They are blinded to the Truth people!

Also, on the note of our political parties. Neither one is perfect. Ummm, Republicans, what about helping out those once they are born (ahem, read the article)? Ummm, Democrats, no matter what you say, you are killing a life with abortion.

So, now, friends who are Republican and see me as evil for not voting Republican... please respect my decision. I respect yours and do not attack you for not loving the lost and the least by not providing them with health care or food. Please do not attack me for my parties decision to be pro-choice (which isn't pro-death, but the right for a woman to choose what to do to her body), or for their stance against the war in Iraq. Ok... just respect me as a sister in Christ.

Now, I leave you with one quote from the article that I think is quite convicting. It is convicting to me as a Christian, not as a Democrat... so I hope it is convicting for each one of you.

Speaking at Wheaton College, Tony Campolo once had great opposition to his words (which have been quoted various times, various ways, with the meaning still valid), “I have three things I’d like to say today. First, while you were sleeping last night, 30,000 kids died of starvation or diseases related to malnutrition. Second, most of you don’t give a shit. What’s worse is that you’re more upset with the fact that I said shit than the fact that 30,000 kids died last night.”

Mortification

So, I don't just get embarassed. I get mortified.

And normally, it isn't being in front of people that bother me. I can talk in front of groups. Easy.

Its when i feel that I have made some sort of social flub that I get MORTIFIED!!!

Recently felt this... and every time I think about the situation (and no you don't get to know), I just clamp up. My heart beats fast... my stomach drops... and I feel my face turn red. Why? I don't know.

Its always been this way, but just have had a rash outbreak of mortifying situations recently so its been on my mind. Maybe one day I won't care.

HA!

Me = Selfish!

I have recently had this revelation that I am so selfish.

Whether or not you believe me, I am very shy and self-conscious. And I have turned this into a very selfish thing.

When i talk to someone, especially someone i don't know, I have turned it into: "Oh, I just said something really stupid." "Look how awkward this is, they must not like me." etc... I do this rather than focusing on what the person is saying, and in turn learning about them and sharing their life with them.

I don't give my time as freely as I should. I want my alone time (I need it to be energized), but in turn if I have a busy week I just choose not to be with others. For instance, last week I had to work three evenings. I had a friend who needed to talk to someone. I knew this, but rather than take my one night off to spend it with her, I just stayed at home "because I really needed it." Umm... wrong choice, I am afraid to say.

I am selfish with my time and God. Rather than sacrifice, I just don't spend time with Him.

Why am I so self-centered?

I pray that God continues to convict me of this and shows me ways that I need to be pouring out and into others.